Finding My Happy Thought

“Sometimes these things get worse before they get better.”

He really meant for his words to be reassuring.

I freaked out this weekend, when four weeks into my second stress fracture this year, my pain was actually increasing. I begged my doctor to see me right away, convinced I was having another one of those horrific and practically unheard-of complications that – in his office, anyway — I’m famous for. Would I need another bone graft, another surgery?

But after a bunch of tests, he thought he was giving me good news — no new complications, no surgery.

“This isn’t the same fracture you had before,” he explained. “It’s much bigger, much deeper, much worse. That’s why it’s not healing the way the other one did.”

Oh. Okay.

Finding My Happy Thought

Many times my doctor has had to say, “You’re the only patient I’ve ever seen who…” or “No one else I’ve ever treated has…” So I know he totally meant it as an encouragement when he explained it’s not unusual for this type of fracture to take a while to heal:

“One of my other patients was on crutches for – what was it — eight, nine months? It might just take that long.”

Oddly enough I didn’t find that encouraging.

Let’s see: August to September, September to October, November, December…  MAY 2015???

I’ve been sitting with this thought all week. Kind of numb.

Honestly, I don’t know how to respond. I don’t know what to post on social media or here on my blog.

Of course it might not take that long. But even if it does, I’m not crushed or devastated. My faith in God isn’t destroyed. In the grand scheme of things, a broken bone – no matter how painful or slow healing – isn’t THAT big of a deal.

But I’m also not feeling very cheerful and hopeful and “victorious in Jesus.” I don’t have any happy thoughts — about anything, really.

I look at what’s ahead for me for the next four or five or six

Empty to Fill ~ Lucinda Secrest McDowell | Book Give-Away

Empty to Fill

In my devotional time right now I’m reading “Live These Words” by my dear friend Lucinda (Cindy) Secrest McDowell. I was so challenged and encouraged by what she wrote in the chapter called “Pour.” I took lots of notes in my journal — and then I asked her if I could share this excerpt with […]

imageToday I’m headed to Ligonier, Pennsylvania, to speak at the inaugural Mercy Retreat, hosted by Jennifer Kostick, A Girl On the Doorstep. On Saturday afternoon I’ll be leading two workshops, and on Saturday evening I’ll be giving the keynote address on “Living Fearlessly”!

Date: September 5, 2014—September 7, 2014
Event: The Mercy Retreat
Topic: Living Fearlessly
Sponsor: Jennifer Kostick, A Girl On the Doorstep
Venue: Antiochan Village Conference Center
(724) 238-3677
Location: Ligonier, PA
Public: Public

This morning I will be joining Ron Maxwell and all of my friends at Moody Radio, cohosting New Day Florida from 6 am — 9 am. And tomorrow, I’ll be sharing What Women Should Know About Facing Fear in a series of segments with morning show cohost Kate Bruington! LISTEN LIVE

Christin Ditchfield at WKES

Date: September 3, 2014
Time: 06:00-09:00 a.m.
Appearance: New Day Florida ~ Moody Radio
Outlet: WKES Moody Radio Florida
Location: Tampa / St. Petersburg, FL
Format: Radio

In the School of Pain: Passing the Test

Passing the Test

“Life consists of learning lessons and passing tests.” ~ Francis Frangipane I broke my leg again this week. Stress-fractured it. Again. (Sometimes I say “knee,” because that’s where the fracture is — at the top of the tibia, where it connects with my much-operated-on knee.) The first time was in February of this year. I […]

Holding On To Hope! ~ Jennifer Kostick

Holding on to Hope JK

“In the fingerprints of a God who sent His only Son to suffer, die, and rise again is where hope was birthed and wholeness was made possible.” ~ Jennifer Kostick Today I’ve invited my sweet friend Jennifer Kostick to share some words of encouragement with you — words of hope! Nothing to Hold But Hope is […]

Praying for the Persecuted Church

Praying for the Persecuted Church

The last few weeks there’ve been so many reports of our brothers and sisters around the world facing persecution… including this one from China: Chinese Christians fight back as government tears down crosses “‘The cross is the glory of us Christians,’ said Cai Tingxu, who left his business in Shanghai to protect his hometown church […]

Fun Friday: Bible Study Craft Ideas ~ Especially for Jonah

Jonah Bead Necklaces

“You delight in showing unfailing love. Once again You will have compassion on us. You will trample our sins under Your feet and throw them into the depths of the ocean!” Micah 7:18-19 Hard to believe summer’s almost over! And so is our summer Bible study! I was looking for some fun crafts we could do to commemorate […]